An ode to the abandoned child is a sequel to this story. If you haven’t done so, please read that story first to fully understand and enjoy this story.
Abandoned child, let your heart break. Let the woman you have become acknowledge the child you never got to be. Mourn the choices you were never given, the chances denied. Cry, your beloved mother who couldn’t love you, because she didn’t know how. Lament the long nights when you wondered if the shadows would bring them, those who made you. Open Pandora’s box, abandoned child, and let the curse out.
Misskorang, I am a practicing psychiatrist, I am all too familiar how mental and emotional wounds manifest in behavior and choices. My sister has zero self-worth, which she drapes in excessive servitude and kindness. She has no boundaries, she would tolerate any and everything just to be accepted.
My sister is a classic case of abandoned child syndrome.
I am trying, God knows I’m trying to lift her up, to teach her how to show up for herself and believe in her own magic. But there is a void, the elephant in the room; she has a wound that has not healed. A motherless child, growing up with her mother right under her nose.
My mother sat Mensima and myself down years ago to explain and apologize. But that was it, an explanation justifying her actions and a meaningless apology. An apology that basically said, “I am sorry things are like this but I need things to remain as they are.”
What is an apology unaccompanied by changed behavior?
At age fifteen, a teenage girl went from house to house selling fresh bread made by her mother. A grown man, in the village to inspect cocoa beans, decided the little girl would do in the absence of his wife. When the teenager was discovered with child, that agricultural inspection officer was long gone. Her mother sent her away to have her child, all the while telling anyone who would listen that her daughter was away in school. When her granddaughter came, grandmother adopted her, with an elaborate lie that she was the unwanted baby of a distant relative.
My mother thus was given a second chance to live as a child. And then as a young woman, she met my father, a dashing young man, a computer whiz, well educated and well traveled. When he asked her to marry him, she asked her mother, “What do I do about my daughter?”
“Do nothing. Say nothing. Go live your life, she is not yours,” grandmother dug the foundation of the mess that has become Mensima’s life.
And go she did, and live she did. Free and unencumbered with the burdens of her fatherless daughter.
So while she held my hand and showed me how to trace letters and numbers, her firstborn kneaded dough and hawked bread just as her mother and grandmother before her had done. While our family took exotic vacations to Cancun, Zanzibar and New Zealand, Mensima stayed behind with Grandma to housesit.
Mother will never openly admit it, but the life my siblings and I have had was bought and paid for by Mensima’s abandonment.She has two medical doctors, a lawyer and a media guru for siblings and yet cannot properly read a full sentence.
The past does not hurt or annoy me as much as the present. I know we cannot change the past but we can change the present to impact the future. But not my mother, she is too concerned about society to disturb the waters. So her daughter remains on the outside looking in.
I rope my sister in, in every way I can. But it isn’t my heart she needs, it’s her mother’s, but, it appears that is one thing she has to accept she’ll never have. When she’s around our mother, she plays her assigned role, the grateful bastard, paying homage to the woman whose mother raised her. Mensima never talks about her parentage, never expresses any emotion or thoughts about it. She says she’s made peace, but my doctor’s instinct tells me that’s deflection, in order to avoid the pain. She still finds the grace to smile and have joy, for all she’s had to live with, that is a great feat.
I hope you heal, abandoned child, heal. Confront the truth and heal. Unsightly though she may be, this stark naked truth brings clarity and awareness. And how do you heal that which you’re not aware of? Stare her down, this truth, and acknowledge her, “I am an abandoned child and my heart is wounded.”
Heal dear child, abandoned by mother and by father, heal, you may just fly!
Editir’s Note:
Dear contributor, I hope you find closure. And I hope your sister heals and thrives. I believe that being a psychiatrist, you have explained the consequences of your mother’s actions on her daughter’s psyche to her. I once heard a famous doctor say, sometimes, be prepared for the fact that the outcome you desire may never happen, and learn to be okay with it. Don’t let your mother’s choices going forward hang over you forever. Let it go and live.
**Names and places have been removed or changed to protect the contributor’s and her family.
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This is heavy. I really appreciate that the psychiatrist doctor sees how painful it must be for her sister. We often hear that the other siblings are also mean to the “abandoned child” so it is refreshing to know that her sister at least embraces her with love. Thanks for sharing this, even though it broke my heart. ?
Unfortunately, I’ve had many psych patients and friends/family of mine in situations like these. It’s so sad, especially because the “abandoned child” is one of the kindest but most walked all over.
So sad how childhood scars can have such detrimental repercussions throughout life. As you say, confront the truth and heal.
This is a very sad story all the way around.
I couldn’t read it without crying. This really breaks my heart. No out of words.
Its hard to realize how an upbringing can change a person forever. You can work through it to a certain extent, but it’s always there
This truly is a heart-wrenching story. The line that impacted me the most was “A motherless child, growing up with her mother right under her nose.” So very sad.
That is a touch situation so much pain!
So sad. I hope the abandoned one heals and bears that title no longer. I hope the sister heals as well.
Being abandoned by a parent is awful. This post was triggering for me but I liked hearing the perspective from a caring sister. As I often feel like siblings don’t always stick together after situations like this.
This breaks my heart!